IF it’s OKAY!! NOT tO bE OKAY!! then I am OkaY☺

   IF IT’S OKAI!!! NOT TO BE OKAI!!!! THEN I AM OKAY!!!

   WHEN PEOPLE ASK ARE YOU OKAY??

   I SMILE 🙂  AND SAY YES, I AM OKAY!!!

   BUT WHY DO ??? I HAVE TO SAY; I AM OKAY!!!

   WHEN I AM NOT!!!

   WHY DO ?? I HAVE TO SAY; I AM OKAY!!!

   WHEN IN REALITY I AM PISSED OFF…

IT’S OKAY WHEN PEOPLE SHOW CARE TO YOU,

THEY SAY, SHARE YOUR FEELINGS WITH YOUR LOVED ONE’S

THEN YOU WILL BE OKAY!!! BUT FOR ME, IT NOT OKAY!!!

AS I CAN NEVER FEEL A SENSE OF RELIEF.

IT’S HARD TO TRUST THAT PEOPLE REALLY DO CARE,

AS DEEP DOWN I KNOW THEY WILL NEVER EVER UNDERSTAND MY PAIN,

MY WORDS WILL BE USELESS JUNK FOR THEM…

HOW CAN I EXPECT FROM ANYONE,

WHEN I KNOW PEOPLE ONLY KNOW ONE FOURTH OF WHO AM I !!

AND THAT ONE FOURTH IS WHAT I WANTED THEM TO KNOW.

SO HOW CAN I BELIEVE THAT THEY ARE OKAY!! TO KNOW THAT,

I AM NOT OKAY!!! TO TELL THEM THAT I AM OKAY!!!

SOMETIMES IT’S OKAY WHEN YOU aRe ALONE

rather then  SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE MAKE YOU SUFFER MORE,

AS IT’S NOT OKAY!!

TO BE LOST IN THE CROWD OF KNOWN PEOPLE.

ITS HARD TO ACCEPT CHANGE BUT AT THE END WE HAVE TOO,

NO MATTER WHAT OUR BODY SAYS AND WHAT OUR MIND SAYS, GOING WITH THE FLOW IS SOMETIME DUE TO STRONG PRESSURE OF AIR OR GOD’S WAY OF SHOWING THAT’S WHAT I HAVE FOR YOU…

IF IT’S OKAY NOT TO BE OKAY THEN I AM OKAY, TO SEE MYSELF SEEING NOT OKAY!! WHEN MY HEART REALLY WANNA SHOUT IN ANGER AND WANT TO FIGHT AND DEFEND MYSELF I STAY QUIET AS PEOPLE SAY IT’S OKAI!!!

I am broken, pissed, confused, upset, stressed,ANGRY.. And if all this is okaY then I am perfectly okaYY..

 

# I decided to pen down my words, this time I don’t have a story or a positive morale, as sometimes it’s okay, to write what’s not okay…